God is good and He is holding you close to him. He will get you through your struggle one day, one moment at a time. Trust Him.
“I am the vine; you are the branches. Whoever abides in me and I in him, he it is that bears much fruit, for apart from me you can do nothing.” (John 15:5)
Jesus is the bread of life.
“‘Man shall not live by bread alone,
but by every word that comes from the mouth of God.’”(Matthew 4:3)
“Oh, taste and see that the Lord is good!
Blessed is the man who takes refuge in him!” (Psalm 34:8 ESV)
By His grace, he has given you the tree of life to eat from. A wise woman told me years ago to order my life according to His word through faith in Christ. We all will fail and have failed. None of us are perfect. Only one is perfect–your precious Saviour who lived a holy life for you so that you can enjoy him and live abundantly.
” But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.” (Matthew 6:33 ESV)
We will all “fall down” while seeking Him. It doesn’t mean we have fallen away. No, it brings us closer to Christ and the cross and causes us to say THANK YOU JESUS!
“for though the righteous fall seven times, they rise again, but the wicked stumble when calamity strikes.” (Proverbs 24:16)
We all will fall down (sin) during our day. The difference for Christians is Christ. We get up again, repent, ask for the Holy Spirit’s help to live right, and thank Jesus. If we sin again, we go through the process all over again. You are free from the bondage of fear of punishment and liberated to live in Christ (Leviticus 25:10, Luke 4:18-19))–joyfully, lovingly, peacefully….
You are precious!